((((Dazed))))
I'm so glad you posted your distress and anxiety here. This place has many here that have gone through and know exactly how you feel. Here you can find empathy, understanding, love and good advice on how to deal with your memories and the feelings that result.
I agree with Dana's encouragement also to talk to a professional about your feelings of desperation right now though to help you work through this.
I hope that seeing more and more victims finally speaking out from their enforced silence, will actually help you and other victims to end the frustration of not getting any justice from the WTS.
Dazed....please know that you and all the victims that have broken their silence here have all helped me (and many more too I'm sure) so much to see so much more clearly just how shallow the WTS has been, and still is, in its promoting the "good name of the Society" rather than the physical and emotional well being of those in its care.
Please hang in there!!!
Had Enough
"Never doubt that a small group of citizens can change the world.
Indeed, it is the only thing that ever has."...Margaret Mead